Rants

Assalamu'alaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh. 

This post is totally unplanned. I just need to rant a little. 

So it has come to the time when I feel like I screwed up the whole semester. The amount of stress and pressure I feel right now is beyond words. I have NEVER feel like crying in the class, infront of people but today, I am so close, SO CLOSEEE to burst into tears. Tears of despair and hopelessness. Ya Allah I thought I am strong enough to go through this test but I am not. I feel like I am good in nothing, I failed miserably, I can't keep up with the syllabus, and I feel like the time is passing by just WAY TOO FAST. 

I am 4 weeks away to final and I'm not even 10% ready for it. I want mum, I want to be home. Infact, I NEED. I am at my worst, my lowest. So close to giving up.. Ya Allah lift me up, make things better ya Allah. Forgive me for the things I have done wrong. Maybe my sins somehow slowed me from understanding, and doing well. For it I seek forgiveness. Please ya Allah, ease this journey you put me in. Help me get through :(