Alhamdulillah syukur tak terhingga diberi peluang untuk menyambut kedatangan Ramadan sekali lagi. I think it is not too late to wish everybody Salam Ramadan!! ;D Since i didn't do well last year, this year I'll do my best. Buat sehabis daya untuk buat Ramadan tahun ini bermakna. I bet this year's Ramadan will be so fast & can't believe now is already the tenth day!
I don't know why but this Ramadan brought me back to Ramadan 2011 a lot. I've been reminiscing 2011 Ramadan lately and I realize I miss those moments. Tahun lepas tak rasa mcm ni. Langsung tak. Mungkin byk benda yg berlaku lately yg similar to what happened in 2011. But apa yang berlaku?
So that year, Mia & me decided to berhijrah together after dapat hidayah (cewah). Maybe atas kesedaran masing masing but bila aku suarakan rasa nak pakai tudung dekat dia, and she said she has been thinking abt the same thing too! Jadi excitednya Allah saja yang tahu. Hampir raya mcm tu, we both pakai tudung. I'm not sure if it was on the same day ke tak sbb tak rancang nak on the same day pun.
Tapi kenapa tiba tiba teringat? Sebab ada sepasang best friend ni, (nama tak boleh bagitahu) berhijrah jugak & sama sama jugak & on Ramadan jugak! That make sense kan kalau tiba tiba aku teringat? I miss that year. The year yang tiba tiba rasa dosa banyak sangat berbakul bakul. Terasa bersalah bila ustazah mengajar and usik part sensitive (mengenai aurat & so on). Bila ustazah masuk kelas, excited nak belajar (I always hated Agama subject back then. Ampun ya Allah). Tapi bila dia ajar, terkena hidung sendiri haha!
Honestly, pengajaran dia yang banyak buka hati ni nak berubah. Banyak beri kesan yang dalam. I thank Allah everyday for His hidayah and I pray everyday for Him to grant me His hidayah for every breath I take. And not to take it back from me. I'm happy the way I am now. Tak pernah menyesal pakai tudung bcs ramai yang rasa tak puas tunjuk rambut. But for me, aku menyesal tak hijrah awal awal. Takdir Allah, aku akur.
